I’m baaaaack! The last couple months have been a whirlwind, and I apologize for the lack of posts. But, school is back in session, down here in Florida, and I think my heavily missed routined days have returned. Thank goodness!
While I was away, I was working on something pretty special… a baby! We are having a baby BOY!!!
I couldn’t be more excited to share with all of you, we are pregnant again! It was a bit of a rough road at times, some tears, fears, and LOTS OF STRESS, but we can officially announce, we are pregnant!
If you remember, I wrote a post about suffering a miscarriage last year. I don’t want to dwell on the negative today because we have moved forward and couldn’t be happier about welcoming another baby into our lives. However, it is a part of our story and I don’t want to brush over it. I want to be real with all of you.
This pregnancy has been WAY different than my first (and second), in many, many ways. After previously suffering the miscarriage, I would be lying if I said it never crossed my mind with this pregnancy. I thought about it A LOT at the beginning, and I still think about it today.
Once you realize it can happen to you, and you aren’t invincible, your mind (and doctor) remind you it can happen again. There is a fine line between stressing too much about it, not allowing yourself to fully immerse in the joy, and being overly excited and naive to the possibility of it happening again.
So, here I am, 26 weeks pregnant, unfortunately, still thinking about that possibility. However, these concerns are quickly turning to the fear of having another preemie (my daughter was born at 35 weeks). Goodness, what a worrier!! Haha! Are these thoughts normal or am I driving myself crazy? Maybe both?
Even though I just made it sound like I am miserable, I promise you I am NOT! I am THRILLED to be having another baby, and a boy too! What a true blessing!
My husband, daughter, and I all found out the gender together. We had just had an ultrasound at 18 weeks, and we asked the ultrasound tech to put one of two pieces of paper in an envelope – Boy or Girl.
My daughter can recognize capital letters, so we had her open the envelope and tell us if she saw a B or a G. “B!” was her response, and we all were overjoyed (especially my husband!).
Talk about pressure… my husband has desired a boy from the beginning. The first time around wasn’t as intense because we knew we wanted to have more children. This time around was much different. We decided if we were having a boy, we were done. Two kids – boy and girl, picket fence, dog… you know the drill. (We don’t have a picket fence though!). Anyway, if we found out we were having a girl, there was a small chance we would try for a boy and have a third baby.
Finding out it was a boy almost provided a sense of relief, a feeling I wasn’t expecting. I guess I only wanted two kids!
So, here we are – awaiting our November baby boy, and reality is starting to set in. I am NERVOUS to have two kids. Truly! If you know me, you know I thrive on routine, I love a schedule, and I succeed when things are not chaotic. My daughter is almost three (How do I have an almost three year old?!? Where does the time go?) and we work well on our schedule, well now that school is back in session. But, bringing a baby into our world, is definitely going to change things, A LOT!
I assume it will be somewhat easier the second time around. I have done it all before, and I have an understanding of what taking care of a newborn entails. Something I had no clue about the first time. I will also have my little helper, who continually kisses my belly each day and says, “I love you baby brother!” Oh my heart!
On the other hand, I have no clue what it is like to have two kids. I know we will make it work for us, and soon enough it will all be second nature, but that doesn’t mean I am not nervous now. I really am! All those stories about how “My first kid was a great sleeper, but my second was a whole different story!” Or “My first child was an angel, and my second child was a terror!” Well, my daughter is both a great sleeper and a sweetheart. I think I might have my work cut out for me this time around!
It is crazy how one new thing in your life can make such a GIANT change and impact. I cannot wait to meet this little boy of ours, watch my children grow together as siblings, and experience the joys of being a family of four. I know it is going to be a lot of work, as you all know too, but I couldn’t be more excited for this new journey, a journey we have already started together as a family.
Feeling this little guy kick and flutter makes my heart swell with love and excitement. Please stay tuned as I share the rest of these experiences with all of you! I want to hear your thoughts, and I will take all the advice!